Whoa.

So long, farewell, Tumblr.

I have finally decided that I am officially leaving the Tumblr world. Over the past three weeks, as many of you know, I have been fasting. This fast has been an amazing awakening for me. And God’s really been speaking out to me these last weeks. Over the course of my Tumblr experience, I have met many amazing brother and sisters of God. The reason I created this account was not only to create fellowship and grow in my faith with people that understand and get it, but also to be able to reach out to my fellow Tumblees who have not excepted Christ in their lives. But over the past few months, my blog has become less about God, and more about my life. But as I trug along through Tumblr I’ve been noticing somethings- the only people reading it, are already Christ followers.

Okay, I’m not gonna lie, I have had many people come to me and compliment me for encouraging words and how God touched their hearts through my stories and personal triumphs -which, don’t be thanking me, be thanking the good Lord. But it gets dry after awhile. It gets dry when the same exact people are your regular readers, who seem to get it, but aren’t actually changing their lives. They read the Bible verses, personal stories, and revelations, but they aren’t actually taking it in. They skim, say a prayer, then continue to blog their pictures (NOTHING wrong with that). I just feel like I’m growing in a place were everyone else is sitting. 

Tumblr has helped me evolve into the person I am, no question about it. But I feel like it’s full of Christ believers who seem to be breathing in the Word and exhaling the world, but in actuality their only doing exercises, they aren’t actually living on it 24/7. God is life, He’s more than just a little Tumblr post. No matter how many times you blog a picture about faith or God, it’s not getting you anywhere. Not to say they aren’t inspiring and lift you up, it just so many of us are spending time in this little capsule that we believe is safe and right, when in actuality we need to break free and start moving. 

With that said, thank you to so many of you for constantly lifting me up when I was down, for listening to my rants and babbles and revelations. Thank you, I am so blessed to have some amazing fellowship created here. But this next season in my life is all about moving and helping others. I received massive support from all of you when I needed it, and I’m positive I’ll need support in the future. But I know that God will see me through. I want to start reaching people like never before, embracing the Word of God and instilling it in people’s hearts. I am so so so thankful for God blessing me with Tumblr in the season of life I was in. I will continue to carry many of your shining faces in my hearts forever. And maybe carry some of you into this next season of my life. 

I don’t want to loose you guys, so if you’d like to contact me, you can always email me at: margotchampagne@gmail.com, add me on facebook: http://www.facebook.com/margotchampagne123

my blogspot which I post on maybe once a month: http://hispaintedcanvas.blogspot.com/

or follow me on twitter: https://twitter.com/#!/champagnemargot

God bless you all!

Starting January 15th, I’ll be gone from tumblr for 21 days of fasting.

If you wanna join in, you can checkout the Awakening here.

I’m personally also removing and distractions such as tumblr, facebook, twitter, texting, (internet in general, unless needed for school work), television, and any secular music. And the fast we’re doing is the Daniel fast, if you want to see what my church website says about all of what I know (I haven’t really checked out the other link) click here.

So chat me up on anything before the fast, I’ll be gone for a while! Oh, and since I’m giving you all these links, go checkout my blogspot: http://hispaintedcanvas.blogspot.com/

It’s purely all my revelations, (which have been posted to tumblr) minus all my personal posts and how my day is and stuff. I also am thinking about deleting my tumblr soon, not totally decided yet, but I’ll explain later.

Anyways, yep that’s it! I encourage you all to do the fast with me and the thousands of others across the globe! Be blessed guys!

God gives us so many beautiful ways to love.

And we all are unique in the ways He gives that. Gives us each special traits. Each. The God that created the wind and the seas, the sunsets that are never exactly the same, the millions of species, also gave us millions of differences.

It’s truly amazing. And if you’re reading this, don’t just read it. Soak it in. Think about just how purely brilliant He is.
Can you imagine? 

Smooth tones of a voice, drifting, changing notes and moving quickly and slowly. 

Minds to create thought and art, change and invention.

Hands that sculpt and fester beautiful creations.

Bodies that move in every which way swaying, mimicking movement of it’s environment and beauty.

This list goes on and on.

I can’t even think, how great He is. There is truly no words.
It makes me feel so weak, to see how strong He is.

We’re all just puppets in His show. And He’s center stage, the star. We’re just the opening act. Awaiting a magnificent end.

It’s Crazy how He loves.
Absolutely crazy. 

NO Voicemail.

If you call onto God, he doesn’t send it to voicemail, you don’t get a “line busy” tone, He always picks up. He always takes the call and listens in. And sometimes, He anwsers right away, sometimes He just listens to you vent. But either way- He recieves the message. He gets the 411. And guess what?? No matter how long it takes, He always messages back.

He isn’t your silly forgetful friend ladies and gentlemen, He is reliable, and gives the perfect anwser everytime.
So go ahead, why not call on your Father?

Hey ladies -and gentlemen- this is for you.

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of you inner self, the UNFADING BEAUTY of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great WORTH in God’s sight. Peter I 3:3-4

whoa, 2012, already?

Let’s just say I’m not prepared for this new year. I haven’t even gotten a chance to take precaution. No party to start to year on a good note, no crazy hats, confetti, watching the ball drop, none of it has even crossed my mind. I have no plans for what I’m going to make of it, no revalations that have punched me in the face and said “this is what you’re doing Margot, this is how you’ll do it, and here’s the blueprints for the operation” nope, nothing.
But do I need any of that this year?
Do I need some confusing plan crafted from the back of my mind that’s going to be the layout fr 2012?
No.
All I need is my shin pads and helmet ready
Because God is taking me on a big adventure this year. And I’m gonna have to brace myself.
2012, God, I’m ready- give me all you’ve got.
Much love, the niave and terrified Margot.

Fear

Fear is the number one thing that held me back from Christ the longest.

During the Halloween season, at our youth group we had a series all about fear. I didn’t make it to all the services. I didn’t want to. I didn’t want to talk about the number one thing controlling my life - fear.
I was absolutely TERRIFIED of having a full on relationship with Christ. I worried, I questioned my worth. I thought I wasn’t worthy, that all the kids there were better than me, God loved them more and their sins were forgiven, not mine. I couldn’t let go of my past and grab onto God. He threw me down the rope, why couldn’t I just reach out and tie it around my waist, so He could pull me out of this insane hole I had dug?
At one point in the service, Pastor Hayden said “If there is anyone who still hasn’t excepted God in their life, who is still holding back, come up here ad we’ll pray with you.”
God was pushing me, I thought at any moment I would fall face first into the ground. I was shaking, the tears were about to burst out of my eyes. But I didn’t move. I wanted so badly to go up there, and pray, but I was scared.

What if they judge me? They don’t know me! They have no idea what I’m going through. I can’t, I can’t tell them what I’m feeling. 

Doubt overwhelmed me, God was pushing me, trying to get me up there, but I wouldn’t go. I wouldn’t move. Fear froze me to the ground. 
When service ended, my friend Cora came up to me.
“What’s wrong? Are you okay?”
‘I.. I..’

Then the tears burst. She just sat there and held me. I couldn’t stop. I couldn’t breathe. I was so embarrassed. I sat down with trembling hands
“What’s going on?”

I told her everything. Everything I was scared of. Everything boiling inside of me. I couldn’t hold anymore.
She didn’t judge me. She didn’t mock me or spread words, she listened. She cared. She told me everything I needed to hear, everything I wanted to know. God spoke through to me through her.

The fear vanished. It was like my life flipped around dramatically. God took my hand, and wiped the fear away. He freed my mind. He changed me from that moment on. From that exact moment. Fear no longer ruled my life. He did. Full heartedly.  

Let Him rule your life. Not fear, not worry, not your past, your sin, let HIM. Him and only Him. If He is your life, there’s no room for anything else. 

Baby.

I love you more than the waves love the shore, more than a Hummingbird loves the sweet nectar of a red petunia. I loved you before I even knew it. I haven’t met you, but I know you.

Your name will be Scarlet, Scarlet is your name. You’ll be red hot, on fire for God. You’ll brighten everyone’s eyes, you’ll be compassionate, driven. On fire for people, for creativity, expression. Baby, you’ll be Scarlet. You’ll never let your scars and your pain control you. You’ll never feel weak, or alone for to long. Scarlet, you’ll feel scared, you will be sad, but baby there’s nothing that a little bit of chocolate and prayer can’t fix. I’ll never let you go, not until your ready. I’ll hold you, I’ll comfort you. I’ll be your best friend. Your mom, your mentor, your example. I’ll teach you, and baby don’t you ever stop teaching me. Don’t you ever stop asking why, or how. And don’t you let anyone tell you it can’t be done, because through God all things are possible. You’ll struggle with beauty, but know you are the prettiest girl I’ve ever seen, and I’ll never be able to take my eyes off of you. Fly on the wings of Eagles, soar till you can’t soar anymore. God will be holding your wings up, and I’ll help you with the lift off.
Scarlet I’ll love you more than any mommy could, I give you more love than you can receive. Baby your grandma loved me just fine but I’ll love you more. She’ll love you too, she’ll spoil you and rot you out. I’ll be there in every heart break, bruised knee, mood swing, falling out, loss, I’ll be there. I want your mistakes, I want your trouble, I want to hold you when you really need it. I want to cry with you, read to you, never stop tucking you in at night. Scarlet you may be embarrassed, reluctant, but one day you’ll know. One day you’ll see God for everything He is, not just know Him but feel Him. You’ll be on fire. You’ll light the flame in others Scarlet, you’ll light the fire in me. 

Baby I haven’t met you yet, but I know you. I love you. I’m on fire for you, and Him. I can’t wait till you are too.

There’s a rush inside of me
a boiling my gut
tossing and turning 
churning like a big kettle pot
my blood races through my veins
Whipping through my arteries 
Cutting through the corners
Taking short cuts,
speeding up my pulse

What is this feeling?

My eyes widen, darting back and forth
lines blur, trees mesh
like a drive down the highway
colors splash together
mixed and combined 
off a indecisive painters pallet 

What is this feeling?

Fingertips bundle together
oil pockets out of my flesh
staining every touch
tap tap tap
the nervous twitch begins
fingers dig under the polish
ripping off the bright colors
scattering them on the floor 

What is this feeling?

A grin as wide as the sea
rushes toward me
small fingers grasp my hand
coiling around mine
tight and wiggly
a innocent noise
sprouts from her mouth
morphing my heart to melt.

What is this feeling?

I tuck her to bed
counting the stars
on her face
the pigs on her feet
cozy her up, bundle of joy
she is warm in my arms

What is this feeling?

I lay to bed
warm in my soul
calm and sweet
I am home.

This feeling is home.